tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3328932846839182862024-03-20T02:37:40.961-07:00Nurse McHornyANGEL OUTSIDE..DEVIL INSIDELonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-85427881649978958182009-03-16T09:18:00.000-07:002009-03-16T09:21:49.747-07:00This song is dedicated to that special someone in my life right now...how i wish that person knows how i really feel towards his existence in my life...<br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/suCsrcr3-Is&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/suCsrcr3-Is&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-30247042964726776042009-03-02T22:59:00.001-08:002009-03-02T23:04:54.722-08:00<em><span style="color:#33ccff;">This song is dedicated to that special someone in my life...your presence, your smile, your charm & everything about you gives me the driving force to love again...Thank you for coming into my life when I'm about to give up on love forever...</span></em><br /><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/igYj7V3_f3E&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/igYj7V3_f3E&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-36616719765811989152009-02-08T06:36:00.000-08:002009-02-08T06:45:00.598-08:00Nurses Nite (17.01.09) Courtesy of Bountygrafix...Thanks a million Babes!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5Xu9JYi3V9EtmrxjlYGqz4eu2j-e3_QNRYR5IjFgMpYaAjdDlur0O4ygF-A1jDvBFWZ0AEqQ4LavvyGOudyiIVHR6iXsbKbQLc-H2RmeiW7b1QluaCYho3SQGi7JlcC1Ng-2svv4l2HPI/s1600-h/Duan1g.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300436910447064194" style="DISPLAY: block; 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MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFFo77zOggICmM1uHLA58Y2xoOmrjMrRcF9s1ywh4pBLFs-OUCLgCdpZB3SVObB22eowAhlQc5qqiRgc_mIOmk2ifxgwxI1Z-2m8u3CV8xd8ea01UDaex7_il3RXDKisLicmObg_cHxadj/s320/Duan1a.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-91875081843292914222008-11-20T11:01:00.000-08:002008-11-20T11:30:00.263-08:00Afgan - Terima Kasih Cinta<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#33ff33;"></span></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:#3333ff;"><em>Recently heard this song as suggested by a dear friend of mine...i should say its a beautifully worded song...so so touching...fell in love with the song the 1st time that i listened to it...When would i be able to enjoy & feel the true meaning of love...Wish that a person out there is meant for me...</em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;color:#33ff33;"></span></em></span></span><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tersadar didalam sepiku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Setelah jauh melangkah</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tak akan terulang lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tanpamu tiada berarti</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tak mampu lagi berdiri</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tak akan terulang lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">ouuwwww...</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">ouuwwww...</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Tak akan terulang lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Semuaaa kesalahanku </span></em><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">oouuwww</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#cc33cc;">Kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/c3hVUW8xVD4&hl=en&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/c3hVUW8xVD4&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-40852919861717610992008-11-17T13:41:00.000-08:002008-11-17T13:50:40.082-08:00Romance - Ku Ingin Kamu<em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;">Heard this nice song from a close friend of mine. Im not a big fan of malay song coz i prefer listening to english songs..but this one really attracts my attention to read the lyrics..To whom should i give this song to...No one i guess :(</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#00cccc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">demi semua yang aku jalani bersamamu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">kuingin kau jadi milikku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">kuingin kau disampingku<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">tanpa dirimu ku hanya manusia tanpa cinta</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">dan hanya dirimu yang bisa</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">membawa surga dalam hatiku<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">ref:</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">kuingin engkau menjadi milikku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">aku akan mencintaimu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">menjagamu selama hidupku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">dan aku kan berjanji</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">hanya kaulah yang kusayangi</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">ku akan setia disini</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">menemani…<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">sentuhanmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">yang berhiaskan bunga asmara</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">dan membuatku tak kuasa</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">back to ref<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">di setiap arung gerak</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">tersimpan di hati kecilku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">bahwa dirimu terindah untukku</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">back to ref<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">ref2:</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">selama ku masih bisa bertahan</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">selama ku masih bisa bernapas</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">selama Tuhan masih mengijinkan</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">kuingin selalu menjagamu<br /></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">back to ref2 [3x]</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">selama ku masih bisa bertahan</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33ff33;">selama ku masih bisa bernapas</span></em>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-70399458111929186372008-11-15T06:37:00.000-08:002008-11-15T07:01:01.610-08:00Reunion On Board (Bollywood Nite) - 8th Nov 08<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg47jnupOacXoNJrEwdIbSnrnQW9epGTI0QMwG-Q7dWT_P9b5M8FXOgzrUKEQDpd1KTzJWh9BH65PrBjWbeAa26iMiL9bKb-8qYTUyITl9sJiieqR-vdSaRNIZ-1v_nhG1rQNwt34cOFA_Y/s1600-h/ROB19a.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5268899322795823666" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" 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id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5268894471414676082" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiy_PvxxUS2WDe6zhJSaXQJiBOnXJDdFt-aIAHTTVIpyvajn_ntnl23gjerOXIRbLyKwhy1qiARZOUzYUwUJyZizHOtxJLoTScVYQItjbMyXTgswoMHa2_yXhfut1Tr_jE-8Bc5xAweLBKn/s320/ROB+flyer.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-30981224341882935172008-11-11T09:26:00.000-08:002008-11-11T10:20:57.783-08:00A song that I love...Should It Be Dedicated To Someone..?<p> </p><p><a href="http://kadang/"><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Kadang</a> aku berpikir</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Dapatkah kita terus coba</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Mendayung perahu kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Menyatukan ingin kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Sedang selalu saja</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Khilaf yang kecil mengusik</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Bagai angin berhembus kencang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Goyahkan kaki kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Genggam tanganku jangan bimbang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Tak usah lagi dikenang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Naif diri yang pernah datang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Jadikan pelajaran sayang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Dengar bisikanku oh dinda</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Coba lapangkan dada kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Trima aku apa adanya</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Jujur hati yang kita jaga</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Mengapa selalu saja</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Khilaf yang kecil mengusik</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Bagai ombak yang besar</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Goyahkan kaki kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Genggam tanganku jangan bimbang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Tak usah lagi dikenang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Naif diri yang pernah datang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Jadikan pelajaran sayang</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Dengar bisikanku oh dinda</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Coba lapangkan dada kita</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Trima aku apa adanya</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#33ffff;">Jujur hati yang kita jaga</span></em></p>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-48529898527347689112008-09-17T09:17:00.000-07:002008-09-17T09:48:34.588-07:00Warkah Buat Ibu Tersayang...<em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33ff33;">Hello ppl out there...Been having ups & downs during the past few days...but im doing fine...still alive & kicking...kicking whatever that i can kick...hehe...Anyway, received an email from a friend of mine which has this writing in the email. While reading it, i cried & felt how the author must have felt when he/she was writing it. Not because i've gone thru that but i could feel how the author feel missing someone so dear in life..A MOTHER..i know i wont be strong to face that but.....sorry ppl..i cant write anymore coz im truly in tears reading this ..</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#33ff33;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Terlalu bosan rasanya duduk membilang hari..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tau tak..... itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>dan itu juga terakhir kali nya. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Emmmm...rupanya mak dah tau mak nak pergi jauh..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>nak tinggal kan anak2 mak..... nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak macam dah sedia..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Seminggu sebelum tu..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak dah menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar tuu.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kakak pun rasa hairan..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak tak penah buat gitu..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa rancangan radio tu siaran siam ...... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kengkadang siaran indonesia ... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak terus tekun menganyam... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di gunakan untuk mengiringi mak ke kuburan... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah bersih2..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. .. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak biarkan ruang tu kosong.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner sume duit dan barang kemas mak.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada kat dalam almari..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada kat dalam dalam beg..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada dalam ASB..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada kat dalam Tabung Haji.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada kat dalam gulung tikar..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>masa tu mak perasan takk..?? </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam gulung tikar... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak cuma gelak jer... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>eeemmm..bahagiaa nya saat ituu.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang mak tiba2 sakit perut..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak dah dalam kesakitan. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah pujuk..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... . </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang belum pujuk.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak kata mak tak mau duduk dalam hospital.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tapi kiter berkeras juga pujuk.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>nanti di hospital ada doktor... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ada ubat untuk mak.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak dan urut jer.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tetap tak bersetuju... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak memang degil.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut perangai mak tu.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak makin teruk.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak pon sakit </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kami adik beradik sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>amponkan kami semua... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kami nak mak sehat... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kami sayang mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kami tak mau mak sakit... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ampon kan kami yer mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak.....</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Malam itu abang bawa mak ke hospital </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>dan itu lah pertama dan terakhir kali mak naik kereta kiter.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Masih terbayang betapa ceria dan gembiranya mak, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter kata nak beli kereta.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak asyik tanya ajer.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>cukup ker duitt.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter jawab pula... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kalau tak cukup, mak kan banyak duit... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak gelak ajerr...... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Lepas tu bila kereta kiter sampai.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak buat kenduri kesyukuran.. .... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dan kiter masih ingat lagi... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>bila kiter eksiden terlanggar Ah-Chong naik motor..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Punya la kiter takut... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter warning kakak kiter jangan sesekali bgtau kat mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Bila balik sahaja kampong.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter cepat-cepat simpan keta dalam garaj..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Tapi mak perasan juga bumper depan kemek... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak tanya kenapa...? </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Selamba jerr kiter jawab terlangar pokok bunga..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tujuan kiter menipu tu supaya mak tak risau... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Maafkan kiter kerana sampai mak pergi mak tak tau hal sebenar... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak, kiter menipu mak kan ... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>ampon kan kiter.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Jam 4.30 pa gi 19/08 /2006 </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Bila tiba aja kat hospital.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>nurse tengah balut mak dengan kain putih..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di lantai hospital... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi kat sudut itu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann. .kannn </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tau tak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5.20 pagi kiter mamandu dalam keadaan separuh sedar.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam kepala ini... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>jalan di depan terasa makin kelam..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>airmata dah tak mampu di tahan.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan itu kiter rela... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai juga... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>di sebab kan pagi masih awal, jadi jalan tu lenggang.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kosong. ...sekosong hati ini..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Sepanjang perjalanan terasa kedinginan subuh itu lain benar suasananya.. ..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>terasa syahdu dan sayu...dinginnnn. .... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter masih ingat lagi... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan ...... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami mengosok seluruh tubuh mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak perasan tak...? </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dia kata...' dikk...jangan nangis...kalau sayang mak jangan buat gitu...jangan nangis ya..' </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Bila makcik tu kata gitu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>lagi laaaa laju airmata ni.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tapi kiter kawal supaya tak menitik atas mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter nangis ni..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Takder orang yang bangun lagi..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter dengar nasyid tajuk 'anak soleh' kiter sedih... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter rindu kat mak..! </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Takpa la.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>nanti bila kita selesai sembanyang subuh, kiter baca yassin untuk mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>mak tunggu ya..! </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak rasa tak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter tak daya..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak dengan air mawar... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi imam solat jenazah untuk mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab kite sebak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari rumah.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>badan akak terasa panas... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>makk... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>anak mak yang seorang tu demam.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tauu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>cuma akak sorang saja anak mak yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah perkuburan.. . </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Begitu terasa kehilangan mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>boleh kata setiap malam selepas maghrib anak mak ini berendam airmata... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dan sampai satu tahap.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>masa tu malam jumaat selepas maghrib... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-kawan. .... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>tangisan tak dapat dibendung... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tauu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter cuba bertahan.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter rasa nak telefon mak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>nak cakap dengan mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan ...? </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter telefon kampong... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Puas la kakak memujuk kiter... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Akak kata...' tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah untuk mak..' </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak tau tak.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>di saat itu kerinduan terasa menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>rasa nyilu sangat... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit dalam dada ni.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu menjelma... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>hanya sedekah al-fatihah kiter berikan..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mak.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>cukup la sampai sini dulu.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat masjid... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor kan ..... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>pastu kawan kiter bgtau... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>simpan je buat kenangan.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter cuma tau alamat ni aje... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Takper yer mak...</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>kiter kasi orang lain baca... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Kiter stop dulu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>sebab kawan kiter dah lama tunggu tu... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>akhir kata untuk mak, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>I LOVE YOU SO MUCH </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>dan jutaan terima kasih kerana membesarkan kiter... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil sampai masuk sekolah.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>sampai masuk unibesiti.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan mampu kiter balas.. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Sekian terima kasih, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#00cccc;"><em>Yang Benar Anak mak yang dah tak degil </em></span>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-61923754699139460292008-09-04T09:51:00.000-07:002008-09-04T10:00:12.690-07:00Something to ponder....<em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#00cccc;">Found this in a profile....read it & think of what it says...makes us truly cherish & appreciate those people that we call 'friends' around us...P.S Sorry..its in Malay...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#00cccc;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Apabila kau ingin SESEORANG sebagai teman, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Janganlah kerana kelebihannya, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana mungkin dengan satu kelemahan, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kau mungkin akan menjauhinya....</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Andai kau ingin SESEORANG sebagai teman, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Janganlah kerana kebaikannya, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana mungkin dengan satu keburukan, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kau akan membencinya.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Andai kau inginkan SESEORANG sebagai teman, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Janganlah kerana ilmunya, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana apabila dia buntu, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kau mungkin akan memfitnahnya.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Andai kau inginkan SESEORANG sebagai teman, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Janganlah kerana sifat cerianya, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana andai dia tidak pandai menceriakan, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kau mungkin akan menyalahkannya.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Andai kau inginkan SESEORANG sebagai teman, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Terimalah dia seadanya, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana dia seorang TEMAN , </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Yang hanya manusia biasa.... </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kelemahan ... Kekurangan ... Keburukan .. </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kalau itu yang kau boleh terima dari seorang TEMAN</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Tidak mustahil kau akan memperolehi keseimbangan dalam berteman</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Kerana kau juga tidak sempurna, </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#33cc00;"><em>Tiada siapa yang sempurna..... </em></span>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-48580069898814153162008-09-01T11:39:00.000-07:002008-09-01T12:34:51.905-07:00Selamat Menyambut Ramadan...<a href="http://i67.photobucket.com/albums/h286/lumoto/Ramadan_1.jpg"><img style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://i67.photobucket.com/albums/h286/lumoto/Ramadan_1.jpg" border="0" /></a><span style="color:#33cc00;"><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:130%;">H</span><em>ello ppl of the world..hehe..mcm banar bah me ah becakap sama ppl m around the world..Been quite a long time since my last entry..just been busy d past week or so...busy doing stuff at work & life..not so much of life plg tu..Im on my 1st night shift & its the start of 1st Ramadan...</em></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33cc00;"><em>Sambil2 kan menunggu sahur...i decided to do some writing </em><span style="color:#000000;"> </span><em>in my blog...colleagues yg lain udah knock down...kepisan tapi i know drg atu tido2 ayam..ia tah krg kan makan drg for sahur coz semua jadi ayam dah hehe...Anyway, would like to wish all muslims around the world a joyful & happy Ramadan...1 mth of fasting..the holy month of Ramadan marks the time when muslims around the world would fast from dawn till dusk...enduring all the challenges that Allah have in mind for each individual muslim.</em></span><br /><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Was remembering those times when i started the fasting month in spore last year. The fasting month fell during the 2 wks 'block' week where all of us were in the poly for our theory. If my mind remembers correctly..i had one exams paper during that time or was it a few of my assignments were due for submission. But i managed to do it & submitted them on time. </span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Fasting month & being in another country was quite a sad thing coz the 5 of us who were there for studies were actually 1st timers having to fast & endure the fasting month away from our families. Its a tradition for Bruneian muslims to gather during the breaking fast on the 1st day of Ramadan. But for us, it was just the 5 of us & we had classes but it was a great experience. I remembered that we all gather at one of the girls' house & was planning to bring food for breaking fast. Among us, i finished my classes early so i had ample time for rest & going out to buy food for the gathering later. But..knowing me being the sleepy head...slept thru till abt 6pm...</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Noticing that it was 6pm & thinking in mind that the breaking fast time was similar to the time in Brunei...i jumped out of bed..had a quick shower & took a cab to buy some food & thinking "Shit..Shit..Shit!!..im late & they must have been waiting my share of food. When i arrived at the girls' place..i saw them still waiting for the time to break fast...being so used to breaking fast at a regular time in Brunei...the waiting for Spore's time was painstaking..haha..lapar bah..coz that morning ..i had an early sahur coz my classes started at 8am ulike the girls where their classes started around 10am i think.</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">So kami ani biasa la..belimpangan udah mcm langau kana spray shieldtox...kes kelaparan banar udah & moderately dehydrated. Makanan udah pld behidang di atas meja..menunggu kana jamah je..mcm di Brunei..menungga tah kami ni azan d tv coz nda tau channel apa kan di tune in for azan arah radio..haha..almost 9mths d spore.,.masih jua nda tau which channel kan mendangar azan..ketara bah channel lain yg di dangar..kwang3x...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqcAg4AxKJweWmGYvd6m9KwKv4LrxckDsljIbAp4jnBxeURnWsWJLhhSgjGjyy_pI31ltXMYBtBsycEwWbXkhr3Tp9coNmBKcsO2MLLPBolhyphenhyphenBIqt3ZvXXiv-lrW7VJPy4srGs9JSaS9Uy/s1600-h/Posing+lapas+sungkai.jpg"><em><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241137702902234594" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqcAg4AxKJweWmGYvd6m9KwKv4LrxckDsljIbAp4jnBxeURnWsWJLhhSgjGjyy_pI31ltXMYBtBsycEwWbXkhr3Tp9coNmBKcsO2MLLPBolhyphenhyphenBIqt3ZvXXiv-lrW7VJPy4srGs9JSaS9Uy/s320/Posing+lapas+sungkai.jpg" border="0" /></em></a></span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Anyway..tunnggu punya tunggu..nada jua azan ani..so one of decided to call our muslim frens d spore..rupanya udah dlm 10mins urg sungkai..atu ya bila udah tau atu..bediri bah tarus sorang2..baca niat buka posa & dengan rakusnya makan..haha..nada lah..tertib masih kami walaupun kelaparan...as usual semua makanan kan di rasa..had a long list of menu on the table...tapi yg di jamah..sikit2 jua ganya...</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Lahib bah usul sorang2 time makan ah...tapi jgn silap..masih control ayu sorang2...as usual..lapas makan..begambar tah jua coz betenaga udah sorang2 kan senyum...hehe..sadly one of us nada in the pic coz classnya abis akhir & she had group discussion jua for the project that they are doing..kesian jua tu...mcm tah drg nda dapat tundaka ke esoknya coz kami kan kumpul sama2 for sungkai...ceh!!...binawi bnr drg ah..but its ok...we left some food for her..in fact a lot..mcm2 bule di talannya bila ia balik & bule lagi bah jua pakai sahur..</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">The days after that was mcm hari2 biasa je di sana atu..mcm nda posa jua rasanya coz nda kerasahan bah suasana posa di sana...tampat membali barang penyungkaian pun a bit far so slalunya i just tapau from poly's cafeteria or biasa la d kadai b4 balik.</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">After the 2 wks, kami semua kuar for our clinical attachments. The girls mostly kana morning shift & office hours but me kana shift duties di Kandang Kerbau Women & Child Health Hospital. D spore..kaja mcm biasa..nda kira bangsa apa...so for me..kalau me posa..my break time atu biasa la..me ke nurses lounge d tingkat satu n catch up on my beauty sleep. Nada urang peduli kan behapa tani d lounge atu...kan bekaraoke bule...tido bule...basically apa2 saja bule la...but mesti during break time je...Ngalih la kaja di sana atu coz patients banyak berabis..the ward tampat me attachment atu lagi slalu full...kan patah saja nda kaki ani bah mejalan & buat kaja..posa tah lagi..dugaan tah bnr....but ada jua sioknya coz tau2 kan time sungkai tah udah if kaja ptg...kalau kaja pagi..balik rumah je tarus masuk bilik tarus pengsan..haha.</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Ok lah nanti lagi me ceta my experiences posa d perantauan..mcm tah ada urang kan membaca..hehe..baru ani received a call from Emergency dept ..ada kanak2 masuk lagi...my 3rd admission for the shift...wuhuu..meriah eh..balum lagi ku sahur ni...will be having nasi goreng butter chicken for sahur...yum yum!!..mau..hehe..bah esok mlm lagi me sambung if ada kan me add & nda byk my patients...Ciao cutie ppl!!</span></em></p>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-74006238595687110692008-08-21T22:25:00.000-07:002008-08-21T23:17:41.473-07:00Gaining peace in mind...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitdIVvuM3NsyETqyUCVwtEFUwdH0AgmeXXoOIBDi712YKQjtEPGCfGbOI8H826iOoHkozDRMTxrJbcjYNwaFfvIM8GW6jRrloNEgBlvkPlQRAipea2kXfyUPbyXY-stGedpHMy6B-O8ZUt/s1600-h/CIMG0001a.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5237209766256278722" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitdIVvuM3NsyETqyUCVwtEFUwdH0AgmeXXoOIBDi712YKQjtEPGCfGbOI8H826iOoHkozDRMTxrJbcjYNwaFfvIM8GW6jRrloNEgBlvkPlQRAipea2kXfyUPbyXY-stGedpHMy6B-O8ZUt/s320/CIMG0001a.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#336666;"><strong>B</strong><span style="font-size:100%;">een a few days since i've last write up any entries here. Quite a turmoil in my life lately...mostly depressing... :( </span></span></em></span><br /><p><em><span style="color:#336666;"></span></em> </p><p><em><span style="color:#336666;">1stly, my application for sponsorship to Monash Uni was turned down. I was told that it was a basic nursing degree & they wanted me to do a degree specialising in paeds...& the only place that offers such degrees is the Uks. But i'm just wondering why i have to do so...the course that i took in Spore is a specialised one & its the same modules that the unis in Uks are offering. Why waste my time doing things that i have done & in fact its just gonna waste govt's money. Though in Uk, i would be offered a full time course for 2 yrs & in Monash i was offered a 3 yrs course, i would prefer going to Monash. Monash have allowed me to be exempted from most of the paeds modules that they offer & i was given the choice to take up other specialised modules like neonatal to fill up the 3 yrs course. That would be better & it wont be a waste. Just imagine!! i go to uk..get exempted in most of the paeds modules there..lots of free time...im just gonna be there for the sake of being there but not fulfilling what i wanted to do. If i'm sent to Monash, though i'll be doing basic nursing degree, it would be very beneficial for me. Its been almost 9 yrs that i've not done adult nursing and other nursing specialities. If i finished my studies & if im up for promotion, i would be knowledgable in handling cases other than my own field of speciality. How do you feel if you are the nursing officer on call & running the management of the nursing aspects of the hospital but you dont have a distinct idea of how to manage cases which are not from your field? Dont you think that you would look stupid as a senior but not knowing how to do so? i would!!</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#336666;">Anyway..if thats what they want me to do..i guess i just have to do so...i still wanna further my studies abroad...in order for me to do so...just follow la apa yg drg mau..nda di ikut then i wont get my chances to do so...payah nyamu...i do understand that we dont usually get what we want.</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color:#336666;">Was at the beach a few days ago....lapas lepak with my frens at LRC coz durang involve in the exhibition thingy di sana. After mendangani durang skajap & memanyap those displayed items, i sat at the beach...thinking abt my life...my career & everything that was encircling my life masa ani...since i had my camera with me so i just took snaps here & there but this picture of the beach just caught my attention. So calm...so peaceful...so smoothing to my eyes...How i wish my life is as calm & peaceful as the picture...but whats life without its ups & downs...bukan kehidupan namanya tu..nda ja?!! Hehe...Ntah ah sometimes i just feel that my life is just being quite unlucky but bila di pikirkan, there are quite a number of the 'ups' moments...those moments slalunya buat me appreciate me being myself...& most of the 'down's events have made me who i am..stronger but yet not strong enough..thats how i feel la abt myself.... Honestly there are times that i regretted living but i tried my best not to think abt that so much...krg gila ku..hehe..but andang jua udah aku ani gila...thats what most of my frens tell me..coz durang slalu liat me as the jovial person..aka happy-go-lucky lad...but whats inside of me..no one knows how i truly feel...the feeling of being unwanted, love deprived, useless and ada jua masanya unworthy of having happiness in this world. Lului plg rasanya kalau me pikirkan abt those stuff but thats just me. But 1 thing for sure..i dont mix my inner feelings with work...at work..im that so called cheerful, fun & at times sarcastic person...haha...laser bah mulut ani...but laser pun..baik kali ah...Baik kah?!! kwang3x!!! </span></em></p><p><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em><span style="color:#336666;">Going on nite shift later...krg lagi menyambung my entry...kalau nda bz la d wad atu...children's ward..very un predictable..krg tah ku tangas pintu emergency d bawah atu..supaya nada kanak2 sakit datang...mcm banar bah me atu..hehe..anyway later peeps!!</span></em></span></p>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-3490640108994990512008-08-11T19:17:00.000-07:002008-08-13T02:52:13.274-07:00Cutie Angels In My Heart<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin0EVWYl95w5wSqzgpPGdFaUzSBOjRuRe_lZtiTpKvqN7Vg34FmABZVLHQYLrHK_1_ebbtJDiOsyseYBvElaGEl1NAZhRSvdF8WANEqF2YXA5mIQpZ4-xtQVU4saxbOcc3Bu_KvnBM2H3_/s1600-h/Anis+%26+Danish2.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5233459953136972274" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin0EVWYl95w5wSqzgpPGdFaUzSBOjRuRe_lZtiTpKvqN7Vg34FmABZVLHQYLrHK_1_ebbtJDiOsyseYBvElaGEl1NAZhRSvdF8WANEqF2YXA5mIQpZ4-xtQVU4saxbOcc3Bu_KvnBM2H3_/s320/Anis+%26+Danish2.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglBRQ0Hfgs_nVURzLSaZoDe1biT6bA7JfHB0zVWtYwJiUFFUAUfJTirZr_wJeq1LY1qetgYlbln67eAWHz9_47JhrqogcBLOGcJkfpWFO04Qis2MZVnDEKWrVTPBwx80HrOu9DBqZqiLIc/s1600-h/Lola.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5233459658769746066" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglBRQ0Hfgs_nVURzLSaZoDe1biT6bA7JfHB0zVWtYwJiUFFUAUfJTirZr_wJeq1LY1qetgYlbln67eAWHz9_47JhrqogcBLOGcJkfpWFO04Qis2MZVnDEKWrVTPBwx80HrOu9DBqZqiLIc/s320/Lola.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMaVzm_NONJVvqHojcl106XDvFTn9BzNurGtpGjaxZRdVJiQDvRnSy4walZfHKsfjPKK4CR3m_i4yOvNzCWiU1mOa-VdI6oU0-X_Map9aYR1MS43gGxutvr2hWFoi-ICGs1tRW85P6TvhJ/s1600-h/Anis+%26+Danish1.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5233459335282438066" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMaVzm_NONJVvqHojcl106XDvFTn9BzNurGtpGjaxZRdVJiQDvRnSy4walZfHKsfjPKK4CR3m_i4yOvNzCWiU1mOa-VdI6oU0-X_Map9aYR1MS43gGxutvr2hWFoi-ICGs1tRW85P6TvhJ/s320/Anis+%26+Danish1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><div><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em></div><div><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em></div><div><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"></span></em></div><div><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;"><strong>D</strong>on't they look like the cutest cuddly kids that one could ever love? When i'm feeling kinda down, they will always manage to put back the smile on my face. Lola..Anis..Danish...Love All Of You So So Much.....</span></em></div><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-83780421404605038732008-08-10T11:50:00.000-07:002008-08-11T06:08:39.549-07:00Enough is ENOUGH...Here I come....<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5232968600971464578" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmXu6q1MRc-tSU67gdiqgKQtwHrGVnfw2KsFjJr6iUDtgSPtVoj71GNXM0cMEf1HLmlyCERTXn3zFfaJVsBqMEP26GjfC3Cwq6uJw9hcxbpzNjAjIhPj04Z6fXa6hEE-Son9wwExiXXpSB/s320/he-devil.bmp" border="0" /><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#ff0000;"><strong>R</strong>aging anger inside of me? Why one may ask? Thats how i've been feeling the past few days...Tried my best to contain that emotion but i guess now is the <strong>BEST</strong> time to let everything out. Basically i have been mistreated for the kindness that i have given to ppl around me... Why are ppl doing this to me?</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">All my life, i have been trying my best to be Mr Nice guy to all the ppl around me especially to those ppl who were given the privilages to be someone special in my heart. Most of the time i end up being the person who gets all the hurt. I grieved and made terms with all the things & evenets that occured. I was weak & just gave in. <span style="font-family:georgia;color:#ff0000;"><span style="font-size:130%;">NOT ANYMORE!!</span> I have had enough of everything. I am the type of person who would give up everything just to make the person that i like or love or whatever that you ppl out there may call it but i do have my limits. After getting what they wanted, i'm just ignored now, unwanted & useless to those ppl who said they like me & starting to fall in love with me...<span style="font-size:130%;">URGGH!!!! Lies...ALL LIES!!</span>...I was comfortable with my limited circles of frens..these ppl are the ones who are there & would still be there by my side especially during my ups & downs. I greatly appreciated these ppl & pls know that you all are in a very special place in my heart. You all mean everything..I really mean <span style="font-size:130%;">EVERYTHING...</span></span></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Now back to those so called ppl who liked me or whatever bull that pops out of their mouth, i regretted knowing all of you. Thought that having 'you' would made my life filled with colours & sweetness of the world but NAH!! it just just too good to be true.. Maybe there was a momentarily glitch in your neuronal system that made 'you' went cuckoo...which i'm really praying hard you would be the world's worst 'cuckoo'. All of 'you' knew that if someone is good to me, i would be doubled or better in devoting myself to the friendship or relationship but if that person hurts me without any apparent reasons, i can be the newly found <span style="font-size:130%;">HE-DEVIL</span> that the world has ever known. They obviously wanted to see the devil in me so for all of 'you', here it comes. Crawling & tearing each & every dignity that 'you' may have. My goal is now to just keep my life going, making myself happy but at the same time i'm just gonna plan my next moves in making those 'you' a hell of a life. Don't expect any kindness from me coz there wou'nt be any for 'you'. Being cruel and sarcastic would be the In-thing for me now but only to them. Play with fire & will definitely get a stronger one in return. Me ani nda pulang mudah penyampai hati but kalau udah kana buat mcm ani..yes i would do it. Pebaik tah urang atu ampai2 dying & asking for my help, i would just let them rot to death for all i care. Kalau udah jahat atu..baik tah ku jahat berabis. Done a whole lot of sins in my life so adding one more would just be nothing for me. Sama jua me sendiri yang tanggung. I hate myself having to treat ppl like this but 'you' made me to do so. Its just not my nature & against my principles in life but what the hack!! Just do what i've got to do & be done with it. I'm still giving them chances to explain their actions but these chances have their time limits so better start thinking of how & what to say coz once im fed up...i'll be a machine gun aiming each & every word that comes out of my mouth to 'you' as my target.</span></em><span style="font-size:180%;"> </span>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-68364404097918592372008-08-09T17:12:00.000-07:002008-08-09T17:58:42.521-07:00Non-sleepy Morning..AGAIN!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnbc9WU8Wz-Y_aRsxQ-EeIfdxKvSCM7DQbv4Aj8fVTUpZtnGpL_zkAPwD_k8JTLmBjTZtEulrqUYXhkax9h_96G93sTD8SFBgf1zVMDhkgC0g8AwMd5acQwQDqOxdRC2FGkgfQ2JTc3dNs/s1600-h/Sleeping+baby.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5232675937807854418" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnbc9WU8Wz-Y_aRsxQ-EeIfdxKvSCM7DQbv4Aj8fVTUpZtnGpL_zkAPwD_k8JTLmBjTZtEulrqUYXhkax9h_96G93sTD8SFBgf1zVMDhkgC0g8AwMd5acQwQDqOxdRC2FGkgfQ2JTc3dNs/s320/Sleeping+baby.jpg" border="0" /></a> <em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#00cccc;"><strong>B</strong><span style="font-size:85%;">ack from work this morning...suppose to be doing what the picture shows...but <strong>NOT!!</strong> Selalu bah macam ani a couple of times so got used to it plg hehe. The baby sleeps so soundly & so so cute & cuddly...kinda like me...hehe...BANAR!!...sama tu usulku kalau ku tido....YA Think!! rite?!!!</span></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;color:#00cccc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#00cccc;"><strong>W</strong><span style="font-size:85%;">as looking at my friendster account...viewing those 'friends' that i've added. Most of them are those that have requested to be added on my friends' list but have no communication whatsoever with them. Well that's cyberworld. Cant be bothered actually as long as they dont disturb me & my life...so be it. </span></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#00cccc;"><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#00cccc;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">W</span></strong>ork was ok last night. One of our old patient was admitted due to his chronic condition. The last time is saw him when a few months ago & he was quite ok. Still manage to throw me a smile though he was in pain while i took some blood sample from him. Cried for a while that time but he knows that i have to do it. Still remembered when he was 1st diagnosed with the condition that he's having now. His joints esp those at his fingers were swollen, tender & moderately swolen. Thrying to entertain him coz he was kinda gloomy that day, i imitate how a penguin walked & at the same time Pingu was on tv. He managed to imitate Pingu's walk better than i did Haha!! thus i nicknamed him 'Pingu'. He usually walked around the wardusing his comfy flip flop...actually bedroom slippers with a bunny at the tip of the slippers. So so cute!! That incident would always be there in my mind....</span></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;color:#00cccc;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#00cccc;"><strong>N</strong><span style="font-size:85%;">ow he's back in the ward....BUT this time is isnt cheerful...he looks frail, so so thin....bony everywhere...was on IV fluids & monitors. The disease has affected his liver & kidneys and from the looks of things...he deteriorating...at quite a fast rate i should say. The way night he was running fever despite of the meds that my colleagues & i gave. After midnight, he woke up & asked for some fried crabsticks that his dad bought early in the evening. Ate a piece i think & went to sleep. This morning ariund 5 am to 6 am, he woke up while my colleagues were checking him. He requested his mom to take him down to the food shop at Block B's lobby czo he wanted to buy some food. I wasn't there coz i was at the counter after giving meds to other patients. Sad isnt it? It was his 4th birthday yesterday & was admitted on that day. I went to his room to see how he was doing & i just can't bear looking at him in that state..so thin..so weak...Crystal of tears started to form & before they could be obviously seen, i walked out of the room & tried my best to keep them from falling. I know that i should be strong & should be immune to such situations after the years that i've worked with children & babies that were very sick. With him, its just different. Being one of our patients in the ward..he kinda stick to us coz he's cute & funny at times with such a sweet smile..Cool looking when he uses his sunglasses in the ward...As for now...i just pray hard for his recovery though i know he's going downhill in his health. No cure for his condition but we still give him the best care possible to make him feel comfortable. Will be on night shift again later so will see how's he is progressing. Quite sleepy now...do need my beauty sleep hehe..ganya..nda jua mau handsome bah mua ani...makin bida ada plg...haha..later ppl...will write more later if im not that busy at work...</span></span></em>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-54210501439477829722008-08-05T09:01:00.000-07:002008-12-09T22:49:49.093-08:00My 2nd Day Off....<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIJngJ18XZF8osb16q3ETLg3mKf-6aw48H8_p_NmVqWWWnuhrK9wUIBfJg_tw5QSy6VQtimbai03sAZemQzCVJeimj3GT3a_EmrVN9TVJnkXXUur83UKz8mRR31EPV2X4wyVfhrBIcOM-s/s1600-h/Singapore+city+lights.bmp"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5231068684418618674" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIJngJ18XZF8osb16q3ETLg3mKf-6aw48H8_p_NmVqWWWnuhrK9wUIBfJg_tw5QSy6VQtimbai03sAZemQzCVJeimj3GT3a_EmrVN9TVJnkXXUur83UKz8mRR31EPV2X4wyVfhrBIcOM-s/s320/Singapore+city+lights.bmp" border="0" /></a><em><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#009900;">Woke up quite early hari ani around 12nn if i'm not mistaken despite of sleeping around 5am tadi..Thanks to mengusai my blog ani & thanks to Noy..my accomplice..Hehe..Jgn marah my dearest Noy. Anyway, was feeling bored so i texted my ward in charge, guess what did i ask her? I wanted to come to work..Kira volunteer la masa my off day ani. Colleagues at work says that i'm the most stupid person to do that; requesting to come to work on my off day. Gila kali pakah nya durang me ani..hehe. Kali jua ah..tapi andang jua udah ulah gila2 at work. Prefers to be the jovial type with my babies & children di wd atu. But sadly the boss said jangan tah datang keraja coz pesakit nda byk & cukup udah staff bekeraja. Boring tah ku tarus...Menalur bah di rumah ah!!</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#009900;">I think it was about 3pm...the ward boss called me up asking for my help to type the appraisal forms for the staff of the ward & clinic. Katanya, just received news from MOH yg the appraisal for this year should be submitted to the ministry before mid of the month. Mcm i'm just wondering why so soon coz i totally forgot today's date which place my boss & us, the seniors of the ward, very limited time to do appraisals for the staff. Since i don't have anything to do, suppose to belajar but nda jau mau belajar, i volunteered to do the data entry of the appraisal forms into the ward's desktop. Nda plg payah bah coz format udah ada so just adjust sana sini, make necessary amendments & enter those data. Started doing those things at 4.10pm & basically finished at 645pm. Dapat plg di siapkan laju & awal but i just took my own sweet time. Udah rasa kelaparan aka kebulur baru tah buat everything in a flash...al maklum la..bangun pukul berapa but didnt eat anything. Rushed home & tarus dinner...nowadays i try my best to have my dinner at least by 8pm or before. Haha..for health reasons plg tu...kiranya kan jaga badan la tapi i think i'</span></em><em><span style="color:#009900;">m still the same..fat as ever before..Kekeke!!</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#009900;">Was browsing thru my external hard disk & noticed the pic that i saved for an email that i received from one of my friends. Its that pic at the top of this entry. An aerial night view of Clark Quay & Boat Quay of Spore. Made me miss the place that i used to call my 2nd home. Kan me baru jua abis belajar dari sana so really miss those places that i've been too di sana. Miss the delicious food, the clubbing areas esp those at Chinatown & Tanjong Pagar like Taboo & Play. At clark quay atu..jarang me ke sana coz not much of my type of crowd there. St James Power Station pun nda jua berapa jauh dari sana...pun top class clubbing place. Since i enjoy menari, biasa la..sampai je...nda payah di jemput ani bah...could find the dance floor in the dark...Hahaha!! But above all, i still prefer Taboo & Play...great crowds on Fridays till Sundays.</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#009900;">When i was in spore, i've got lots of things to do...window shopping, clubbing..hmmm window shopping, outings, clubbing, shopping..opps..looks like shopping & clubbing seem to be my main agenda there..i thought i was suppose to study. Well i cant study 24hrs a day, don't you think so? Work & fun comes hand in hand for me. Anyway did pretty ok on my course..thats important right? Singapore will be celebrating its national day soon. Happy Birthday Singapore!! Nice theme song...Congrats Hady Mirza!! Such a beautiful song!! Miss Singapore so so much!! Uwaaaaa...Kan nangis ku eh...</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#009900;">Tomorrow is my teaching day. Mentioned it in my preious entries. Hope that its going to be a smooth teaching session. Still havent got a clue on what topics to cover but its ok. I'm just the session impromptu!! Not that i've never done that before...luckily in all those cases, i did quite well..Haha..just my luck i guess.</span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#009900;">As for my preparation for the exams on friday...havent started even a tiny bit...Malas bah kan membaca..but got to force myself to do some reading esok... C'mmon Duan..you know that you are strong in overcoming the Malas thingy so get ur freak on..eh...nama lagu tu..apa plg tesampuk nama lagi ani...get moving & get going la...atu baru tah ngam!! Give me support ppl...so that i wont slack...haha..which im prone to i suppose...Well, wish me luck for tomorrow's teaching sessions..hope they are some cute guys there...Boh..an begatal tah tu...Laku tah krg!!!</span></em>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-37645052529897973512008-08-04T04:30:00.000-07:002008-12-09T22:49:49.288-08:00Feelings Slightly Uplifted....<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjj0MvjuJnVc039U6QuxEFKSjwopn7TpYnte5qrHlCJKq0Tyf6hlf9wxXAkGhLdSPFxKURiBx1tQclmmpaJnjFOdxAIKfDm7X4kma82ZZNrOnWsI6GaYp7u1ZgLJGYkNneBwnnD2mwv91ZB/s1600-h/Image001.jpg"><span style="color:#33cc00;"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230758381933680482" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjj0MvjuJnVc039U6QuxEFKSjwopn7TpYnte5qrHlCJKq0Tyf6hlf9wxXAkGhLdSPFxKURiBx1tQclmmpaJnjFOdxAIKfDm7X4kma82ZZNrOnWsI6GaYp7u1ZgLJGYkNneBwnnD2mwv91ZB/s320/Image001.jpg" border="0" /></span></a><span style="color:#33cc00;"> <em>Look how cute he is...That's my Danish..Amirul Danish to be exact...Not mine though..he's my bro's. He'll be 6 months this august. Always wondered if i would have one of my own..my flesh & blood...Haha when will that happen? Something to ponder right?</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Anyway, its 4.30am now & I'm still wide awake..Wondering why? 1stly, slept basically the whole day!! Didn't have a good sleep on Sunday after my 1st night shift due to certain things on my mind. So paid back those deprived sleep hours after my 2nd night shift...2ndly, Had a good chat with my bestfriend Jus & chat online with my close friend, Noy, who helped me a lot with these blogging stuff. Thanks Jus & Noy!!</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Received a txt msg from this someone that i'm falling for saying that he's gonna call me but sadly he didn't. Maybe he forgot to do so, maybe he decided not to do so or for whatever reasons i don't know. But nevertheless he is still in my mind. Missing him! I just think that he must be so tired after waking up so early to get ready & drove all the way to the capital for his work. He could also be having a busy day at work & went home very tired & decided to rest & sleep & totally forgot to call me. Just trying to think positively on what has happened. Just to let him know, i'm still waiting for his call..miss hearing him voive..miss hearing him call me abg, miss d smile on his face..basically miss everything about him..don't know he does feel the same way about me....</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Texted my bestfriend, Jus & we went out for drinks at Zuki's Cafe in Seria in the later part of the evening while having an online chat with Noy, one of my close friends. Its been quite a while since i have such outings with Jus. Wasn't quite chatty with Jus coz she knew i was a bit busy doing stuff to my blog. Sorry for that Jus...i'll make it up to you..i promise!! But we did brought up certain issues pertaining to the latest news going round our place of work..oh yeah...Jus is in the same profession as i..classmates in fact..Hehehe!! Been best of friends since 1993. Both of us will be sitting for the promotion exams this friday but none of us have actually sat down & do our reading like what we are 'suppose' to do. Don't know what to read mah!! Kanasai!!</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Noy who was chatting online with me was such a great help in improing my blog...Clever clever girl...or should i say clever clever big mama!! Jangan marah Noy!! Krg ku jual ko sama lakimu!! Keke!! But seriously Noy..i thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me. Such a good tutor & quite a demanding one la!!..Tacuut ku!! krg kana acut ku ulihnya..Ia ani lagi Cigu tapi Cigu apa..rahsia la..kan ..kan..Noy?!!</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Im just wondering what am i gonna do later? Sleep is a definite thingy but after that..ntah ah..maybe go for my swim...Makin itam tah lagi ku ni...but no worries..i feel good, healthy & i look good thats more important...& gotta do my push ups jua eh...2 days no push ups..lain bah rasa badan ani...kalau rajin tarus sama sit ups a bit & use my dumbells...Not to buff up my body plg...just to keep it toned je..tapi toned kan? Haha perasan aku ah...nda jua berapa my badan ani...i still feel that i'm fat..kalau ku liat di ceramin plg tu...Maybe i am still fat...i wonder if the dietician would help me reduce my weight further & lose those side-skirts & bodykits that i have on me...macam kereta tah plg bunyinya badan me ani..What do u ppl think? Maybe its gonna be good for me to lose some more weights rite?</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>I still need to make time for myself to actually sit & do my reading for the exams la..i may look unworried but deep inside i'm so sacred & nervous...biasa la..senantiasa nervous when it comes to exams...mudahan tah sanag...but bila jua kan sanang kalau nda membaca..nda ja? Pandainye!!</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>In my mind right now are 2 things: 1) Will this someone call me & explain to me what happened to him on Sunday & Monday..i just need an explanation. Wanting to let him know how much i miss him jua tapi ntah ah...patut ka ku gitau ia catu? Krg malas ia kan mendangar...2) Can't help thinking about the group that i'm gonna teach 1st aid & cpr to Wednesday ani. Ok ka nda urg2nya?...Will they be able to understand apa yg kan me ajar & will they be able to cope? Sometimes me ani tebawa-bawa bah coz been teaching nurses about these stuff. So teaching the public about 1st aid & cpr is quite a mind-boggling thingy for me. I'm quite used to converse in english & doing presentations as well as lectures in english so kadang2 payah bah kan translate those terms into Malay...opps..jangan pikir me ani taiming or ambung ah...honestly i do feel more comfortable talking in english...bilingual la..mixed english & malay. Anyway, wish me luck...kalau ada jua good looking atu..siuk jua..bukannya apa..ada jua kan di urat..eh salah..ada jua kan di liat...See but don't touch policy..Haha..Banar kan nda tu?!!...</em></span>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-332893284683918286.post-53021127615338420222008-08-04T02:00:00.000-07:002008-12-09T22:49:50.010-08:00Loner's Blog Debut...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnZhZ1pJn_BaaGXZ6o2BrVNkF558qIW47GixYC0HMapecYX4fx9jCczGcCw8uYE8QZQInz8Vm_QjqtEIDTHLyEoZ-3yfRs3wX8MP2uWlzQnZfSXa7Vymi40l5Umz-kO0nBdhrCfcsd4VAo/s1600-h/In+playroom2a.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5230750863393677090" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnZhZ1pJn_BaaGXZ6o2BrVNkF558qIW47GixYC0HMapecYX4fx9jCczGcCw8uYE8QZQInz8Vm_QjqtEIDTHLyEoZ-3yfRs3wX8MP2uWlzQnZfSXa7Vymi40l5Umz-kO0nBdhrCfcsd4VAo/s320/In+playroom2a.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><span style="color:#33cc00;"><em>Today, 4<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">th.</span> August 2008 during my 2<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">nd.</span> night shift, i finally have the courage & time to create a blog of my own here. I used to have one but haven't updated it for such a long time. I was basically meant <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">for the</span> life experiences that i had while studying in spore last yr.</em><br /></span><br /><span style="color:#33cc00;"><em>This yr marks my 12th yr working as a nurse...Wow...I lasted that long...most probably its due to my passion of working in the medical & health profession. Currently working in the children's ward, i found that my interest in caring for these babies & tiny tots have grown greatly which led me to further my studies in this specialised field. Working with them still fulfill me & makes me feel that i made a difference in their lives though caring for them was just a momentarily lapse in their lives..but who cares!! As long as i gave them my best care & attention during their stay in the ward, i'm sure the parents would appreciate & remember me..not that i expect recognition of the services that i gave Hehe...but it wouldn't hurt though to be appreciated & remembered.</em><br /><br /><em>The past few days have been quite a turnover in my daily life. Was actually feeling quite down with myself. Lately, i just feel that it's not worth living anymore. Really feels that im lonely in this world, no one cares for me..no one loves me for who i am, feeling that i've not done anything to improve my career, a failure in my love life,a failure in everything!! Why am i feeling so? I just can't find the answers to those feelings. People may say it's stupid of me to be thinking about those things but i really can't help myself to do so. People see me as the jovial person at work, at social events etc but what's deep inside of me, i manage to become a chameleon; hiding the true inner feelings thats raging inside me. I do hope that the feelings would fade & go away soon..coz its just killing me soft from within.</em><br /><br /><em>Currently i'm starting to have feelings of love with someone...someone younger than me...but i'm just feeling that this someone is not into me anymore. I know that this someone says he misses me & loves me but i'm just not too sure about that. He isn't the type of person that would clearly show & express his feelings but i just can't help thinking about him & his sincerity. Maybe because we just knew each other but i'm willing to learn more about him & i just hope that he's willing to do so about myself. Still trying to get use to his styles & ways of communicating & interactions but at times i do feel that i'm just there for him when he feels lonely. I do want to tell him how much i feel about him but i'm not sure that i can. I do know that the relationshp that we are having is kind of in a rush but i'm happy the way things are between the two of us. I do feel that at times, i meant nothing to him..i can't lie about that...but when he's with me, i do feel the chemistry between us. The ways he talk, behave when he's with me..everything makes me feel that i'm comfortable. I'm the type of person who is quite determined & hard-headed when its comes to making life choices, decision etc but when i'm with him..i just gave in to whatever he wants..not that he is a demanding person..he's this sweet guy who would make any guy happy & proud to have him as a partner. He is cute, no doubt about that, but its not his looks that im going for...its his heart & his personality aka characters that mystify me in each & every way. Makes him the mystery person that i really want to explore & be a part of me. The quest of getting to know him & understanding him drives me crazy...not hairwired crazy..but a good feeling crazy... :) The way he teases me doesn't hurt my feelings at all...kinda funny actually. How i wish i can tell him that he's on my mind 25hrs a day & im really falling for him.</em><br /><br /></span></span><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Had just send in my application form to apply for a government sponsorship for my studies in Melbourne , Australia next February. Was given a full offer to do my degree in Monash University. I have yet to do my IELTS exams and in oder for my application to be considered, i need to achieve an overall score of band 7 in the exams. Kinda difficult i know..mainly due to my horrid grasp in english...but i'll definitely try my best..that's for sure...if its for the pursue of my career, upgrading my education, knowledge & future..i'll do whatever it takes to succeed.</span></em></p><br /><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">I'm gonna have 2 off days & on wednesday, i'll be teaching first aid & cpr to the staff of Swiss Hotel. Venue will be Nurses Home but i'm not sure of the crowd that my colleagues & i would be facing. That reminds me...need to ask the HOD on what topics that he would like us to cover in the lectures & practical session. It a whole day thingy & i'll try to make the day a fun-filled one for them as well as an educational one i hope hehe...</span></em></p><br /><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">This friday, 8th August, my bestfriend & i along with other colleagues from other nursing specialities would be sitting for our promotion examination conducted by MOH of Brunei. Still not quite sure with regards to the format of the exams & what to read..not study...in preparation for it. Some seniors say read these topics...some say other topics...i'm just mindstruck with their responses & told myself...'Relax...just do your best...its just an exam...something that i've done many times...the questions can't be that difficult if i put my mind into it...as for the promotion...there are more seniors that are in line for the promotion so don't ever think of getting mine soon..haha...not that i'm hoping for a promotion...holding a senior post isn't the easier way in a career...it means a tougher job with a whole lot of new & added responsibilities...not sure i'm ready for that...haha!! Still quite a ding dong in these things.</span></em></p><br /><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Oh shitt!! i can't seem to take my mind of that someone that i mentioned earlier...his face keeps popping in my mind...I am getting nuts, right? A standing ovation for those who agrees on this...The more i tried to not think about him..the more his sweet smiling face pops in my mind...Yeah yeah...i am thinking about him but does he thinks about me? He's sound asleep right now coz he's need to get up early & drive to the capital early morning as he works in the capital & only comes back to our hometown during the weekends. Nevertheless i do hope he makes time to see me & spend time with me. I doubt that he would but i guess i have to be ok with that. It would just show how much he thinks of me...Hey..hey..enough of those puking love tales..haha...im sure by now..friends reading my 1st blog entry would be nauseated..Hehe!! Don't vomit ah..but if wanna vomit..not on my blog ok..</span></em></p><br /><p><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">Feeling kinda sleepy now but have to keep eyes wide open...partly to look after the children here & partly to finish up writing this 1st entry in the so called virgin blog of mine Haha!! Will post updates more soon..till then..pray for me so that my spirit would be uplifted soon...if not, i'll just sie & let my ghost haunt all those who read my blog....If i become Hantu...for sure a flirty, gatal, sarcastic Hantu lo!!</span></em></p></div>Lonerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13813966940971844444noreply@blogger.com0