Raging anger inside of me? Why one may ask? Thats how i've been feeling the past few days...Tried my best to contain that emotion but i guess now is the BEST time to let everything out. Basically i have been mistreated for the kindness that i have given to ppl around me... Why are ppl doing this to me?
All my life, i have been trying my best to be Mr Nice guy to all the ppl around me especially to those ppl who were given the privilages to be someone special in my heart. Most of the time i end up being the person who gets all the hurt. I grieved and made terms with all the things & evenets that occured. I was weak & just gave in. NOT ANYMORE!! I have had enough of everything. I am the type of person who would give up everything just to make the person that i like or love or whatever that you ppl out there may call it but i do have my limits. After getting what they wanted, i'm just ignored now, unwanted & useless to those ppl who said they like me & starting to fall in love with me...URGGH!!!! Lies...ALL LIES!!...I was comfortable with my limited circles of frens..these ppl are the ones who are there & would still be there by my side especially during my ups & downs. I greatly appreciated these ppl & pls know that you all are in a very special place in my heart. You all mean everything..I really mean EVERYTHING...
Now back to those so called ppl who liked me or whatever bull that pops out of their mouth, i regretted knowing all of you. Thought that having 'you' would made my life filled with colours & sweetness of the world but NAH!! it just just too good to be true.. Maybe there was a momentarily glitch in your neuronal system that made 'you' went cuckoo...which i'm really praying hard you would be the world's worst 'cuckoo'. All of 'you' knew that if someone is good to me, i would be doubled or better in devoting myself to the friendship or relationship but if that person hurts me without any apparent reasons, i can be the newly found HE-DEVIL that the world has ever known. They obviously wanted to see the devil in me so for all of 'you', here it comes. Crawling & tearing each & every dignity that 'you' may have. My goal is now to just keep my life going, making myself happy but at the same time i'm just gonna plan my next moves in making those 'you' a hell of a life. Don't expect any kindness from me coz there wou'nt be any for 'you'. Being cruel and sarcastic would be the In-thing for me now but only to them. Play with fire & will definitely get a stronger one in return. Me ani nda pulang mudah penyampai hati but kalau udah kana buat mcm ani..yes i would do it. Pebaik tah urang atu ampai2 dying & asking for my help, i would just let them rot to death for all i care. Kalau udah jahat atu..baik tah ku jahat berabis. Done a whole lot of sins in my life so adding one more would just be nothing for me. Sama jua me sendiri yang tanggung. I hate myself having to treat ppl like this but 'you' made me to do so. Its just not my nature & against my principles in life but what the hack!! Just do what i've got to do & be done with it. I'm still giving them chances to explain their actions but these chances have their time limits so better start thinking of how & what to say coz once im fed up...i'll be a machine gun aiming each & every word that comes out of my mouth to 'you' as my target.
Sunday, 10 August 2008
Enough is ENOUGH...Here I come....
Posted by Loner at 11:50
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