Non-sleepy Morning..AGAIN!!

Back from work this morning...suppose to be doing what the picture shows...but NOT!! Selalu bah macam ani a couple of times so got used to it plg hehe. The baby sleeps so soundly & so so cute & cuddly...kinda like me...hehe...BANAR!!...sama tu usulku kalau ku tido....YA Think!! rite?!!!

Was looking at my friendster account...viewing those 'friends' that i've added. Most of them are those that have requested to be added on my friends' list but have no communication whatsoever with them. Well that's cyberworld. Cant be bothered actually as long as they dont disturb me & my life...so be it.

Work was ok last night. One of our old patient was admitted due to his chronic condition. The last time is saw him when a few months ago & he was quite ok. Still manage to throw me a smile though he was in pain while i took some blood sample from him. Cried for a while that time but he knows that i have to do it. Still remembered when he was 1st diagnosed with the condition that he's having now. His joints esp those at his fingers were swollen, tender & moderately swolen. Thrying to entertain him coz he was kinda gloomy that day, i imitate how a penguin walked & at the same time Pingu was on tv. He managed to imitate Pingu's walk better than i did Haha!! thus i nicknamed him 'Pingu'. He usually walked around the wardusing his comfy flip flop...actually bedroom slippers with a bunny at the tip of the slippers. So so cute!! That incident would always be there in my mind....

Now he's back in the ward....BUT this time is isnt cheerful...he looks frail, so so thin....bony everywhere...was on IV fluids & monitors. The disease has affected his liver & kidneys and from the looks of things...he deteriorating...at quite a fast rate i should say. The way night he was running fever despite of the meds that my colleagues & i gave. After midnight, he woke up & asked for some fried crabsticks that his dad bought early in the evening. Ate a piece i think & went to sleep. This morning ariund 5 am to 6 am, he woke up while my colleagues were checking him. He requested his mom to take him down to the food shop at Block B's lobby czo he wanted to buy some food. I wasn't there coz i was at the counter after giving meds to other patients. Sad isnt it? It was his 4th birthday yesterday & was admitted on that day. I went to his room to see how he was doing & i just can't bear looking at him in that state..so thin..so weak...Crystal of tears started to form & before they could be obviously seen, i walked out of the room & tried my best to keep them from falling. I know that i should be strong & should be immune to such situations after the years that i've worked with children & babies that were very sick. With him, its just different. Being one of our patients in the ward..he kinda stick to us coz he's cute & funny at times with such a sweet smile..Cool looking when he uses his sunglasses in the ward...As for now...i just pray hard for his recovery though i know he's going downhill in his health. No cure for his condition but we still give him the best care possible to make him feel comfortable. Will be on night shift again later so will see how's he is progressing. Quite sleepy now...do need my beauty sleep hehe..ganya..nda jua mau handsome bah mua ani...makin bida ada plg...haha..later ppl...will write more later if im not that busy at work...