Feelings Slightly Uplifted....

Look how cute he is...That's my Danish..Amirul Danish to be exact...Not mine though..he's my bro's. He'll be 6 months this august. Always wondered if i would have one of my own..my flesh & blood...Haha when will that happen? Something to ponder right?

Anyway, its 4.30am now & I'm still wide awake..Wondering why? 1stly, slept basically the whole day!! Didn't have a good sleep on Sunday after my 1st night shift due to certain things on my mind. So paid back those deprived sleep hours after my 2nd night shift...2ndly, Had a good chat with my bestfriend Jus & chat online with my close friend, Noy, who helped me a lot with these blogging stuff. Thanks Jus & Noy!!

Received a txt msg from this someone that i'm falling for saying that he's gonna call me but sadly he didn't. Maybe he forgot to do so, maybe he decided not to do so or for whatever reasons i don't know. But nevertheless he is still in my mind. Missing him! I just think that he must be so tired after waking up so early to get ready & drove all the way to the capital for his work. He could also be having a busy day at work & went home very tired & decided to rest & sleep & totally forgot to call me. Just trying to think positively on what has happened. Just to let him know, i'm still waiting for his call..miss hearing him voive..miss hearing him call me abg, miss d smile on his face..basically miss everything about him..don't know he does feel the same way about me....

Texted my bestfriend, Jus & we went out for drinks at Zuki's Cafe in Seria in the later part of the evening while having an online chat with Noy, one of my close friends. Its been quite a while since i have such outings with Jus. Wasn't quite chatty with Jus coz she knew i was a bit busy doing stuff to my blog. Sorry for that Jus...i'll make it up to you..i promise!! But we did brought up certain issues pertaining to the latest news going round our place of work..oh yeah...Jus is in the same profession as i..classmates in fact..Hehehe!! Been best of friends since 1993. Both of us will be sitting for the promotion exams this friday but none of us have actually sat down & do our reading like what we are 'suppose' to do. Don't know what to read mah!! Kanasai!!

Noy who was chatting online with me was such a great help in improing my blog...Clever clever girl...or should i say clever clever big mama!! Jangan marah Noy!! Krg ku jual ko sama lakimu!! Keke!! But seriously Noy..i thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me. Such a good tutor & quite a demanding one la!!..Tacuut ku!! krg kana acut ku ulihnya..Ia ani lagi Cigu tapi Cigu apa..rahsia la..kan ..kan..Noy?!!

Im just wondering what am i gonna do later? Sleep is a definite thingy but after that..ntah ah..maybe go for my swim...Makin itam tah lagi ku ni...but no worries..i feel good, healthy & i look good thats more important...& gotta do my push ups jua eh...2 days no push ups..lain bah rasa badan ani...kalau rajin tarus sama sit ups a bit & use my dumbells...Not to buff up my body plg...just to keep it toned je..tapi toned kan? Haha perasan aku ah...nda jua berapa my badan ani...i still feel that i'm fat..kalau ku liat di ceramin plg tu...Maybe i am still fat...i wonder if the dietician would help me reduce my weight further & lose those side-skirts & bodykits that i have on me...macam kereta tah plg bunyinya badan me ani..What do u ppl think? Maybe its gonna be good for me to lose some more weights rite?

I still need to make time for myself to actually sit & do my reading for the exams la..i may look unworried but deep inside i'm so sacred & nervous...biasa la..senantiasa nervous when it comes to exams...mudahan tah sanag...but bila jua kan sanang kalau nda membaca..nda ja? Pandainye!!

In my mind right now are 2 things: 1) Will this someone call me & explain to me what happened to him on Sunday & Monday..i just need an explanation. Wanting to let him know how much i miss him jua tapi ntah ah...patut ka ku gitau ia catu? Krg malas ia kan mendangar...2) Can't help thinking about the group that i'm gonna teach 1st aid & cpr to Wednesday ani. Ok ka nda urg2nya?...Will they be able to understand apa yg kan me ajar & will they be able to cope? Sometimes me ani tebawa-bawa bah coz been teaching nurses about these stuff. So teaching the public about 1st aid & cpr is quite a mind-boggling thingy for me. I'm quite used to converse in english & doing presentations as well as lectures in english so kadang2 payah bah kan translate those terms into Malay...opps..jangan pikir me ani taiming or ambung ah...honestly i do feel more comfortable talking in english...bilingual la..mixed english & malay. Anyway, wish me luck...kalau ada jua good looking atu..siuk jua..bukannya apa..ada jua kan di urat..eh salah..ada jua kan di liat...See but don't touch policy..Haha..Banar kan nda tu?!!...